[Grief is hard for him to accept, so, in the past, he shut it out and focused on the tasks at hand. When his mother died, he had forced himself to not think about her and instead busied himself with his marriage. His loneliness had made him more vulnerable than usual and then he couldn't take back what had been done.
No, he isn't going to think about his natural son. So he tells himself as his hands shake and tears blur his vision.
What had he done? Poor Jin Rusong. Why can't he hold both of them, Jin Rusong and Jin Ling, in his arms? All he needs is a second chance...
Life doesn't provide those.
He is outside when Xichen walks up and he trembles, unable to resist the offer. Meng Yao hurries into those arms, returning what is given with gentle hands. His poor Xichen looks tired too - and not in a way simple sleep can cure.]
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No, he isn't going to think about his natural son. So he tells himself as his hands shake and tears blur his vision.
What had he done? Poor Jin Rusong. Why can't he hold both of them, Jin Rusong and Jin Ling, in his arms? All he needs is a second chance...
Life doesn't provide those.
He is outside when Xichen walks up and he trembles, unable to resist the offer. Meng Yao hurries into those arms, returning what is given with gentle hands. His poor Xichen looks tired too - and not in a way simple sleep can cure.]
If he left Fairy behind, we need to find her.